My 1st Post....

This is my first post.  I have to stay anonymous for my safety.

I am a victim of physical, verbal, mental abuse.  No one knows exactly what am I enduring on a daily basis.

I don't know exactly when it started, but I've been in fear daily for at least the past 6 months.  My boyfriend has beat me,  threatened me with death,  belittled me, etc.  I never EVER thought that I would be that person who would be going through this,  but I am.

I've started to reach out to a couple of people.  I'm just afraid of the consequences.

I've taken pictures of the physical effects of the abuse.  The invisible scars are way worse.

Yes, I do love him.  Yes, I would hate to see him in jail.  But, as much as I feel that way,  I almost wish that somehow he would get caught.   He's hit me while in the car IN PUBLIC so many times I don't know how someone hasn't noticed it.  Or maybe they have.

Why did I let this happen?   Why did I let my kids witness this?  Why?   Fear.  Pure and simple.   Fear.

I have to get going now,  but I hope that this blog will help me.  Or maybe somehow someone will read this and reach out to me.

NOK