This is my first post. I have to stay anonymous for my safety.
I am a victim of physical, verbal, mental abuse. No one knows exactly what am I enduring on a daily basis.
I don't know exactly when it started, but I've been in fear daily for at least the past 6 months. My boyfriend has beat me, threatened me with death, belittled me, etc. I never EVER thought that I would be that person who would be going through this, but I am.
I've started to reach out to a couple of people. I'm just afraid of the consequences.
I've taken pictures of the physical effects of the abuse. The invisible scars are way worse.
Yes, I do love him. Yes, I would hate to see him in jail. But, as much as I feel that way, I almost wish that somehow he would get caught. He's hit me while in the car IN PUBLIC so many times I don't know how someone hasn't noticed it. Or maybe they have.
Why did I let this happen? Why did I let my kids witness this? Why? Fear. Pure and simple. Fear.
I have to get going now, but I hope that this blog will help me. Or maybe somehow someone will read this and reach out to me.
NOK
